Lost in re:birth

repeating tragedy...

[ all ] minds are distraught! [ you're ] distrait!
deeper and deeper you fall...
[ just ] stray in the fake! [ but ] feel pain
where have you sealed your real side?

gotta awake you a.s.a.p.!

[ all ] minds are distraught! [ you're ] distrait!
deeper and deeper you fall...
[ just ] stray in the fake! [ but ] feel pain
where have you sealed your real side?

Washed away, the storm of sorrow
Love is erased and replaced with ashes

gotta awake you a.s.a.p.!

Lost in re:birth... alone...
Love always overflowed　Where is eternity?
Lost in re:birth... alone...
Salvation and happiness to the withered world
A desire... Crying alone...

dying...to be bone...
what do you think of justice?
the blight and god...
why cannot the faith mesh well?

[ please ] tell me the answer! [ loud ] crying out!
[ far ] infected sorrow [ hard ] rain falls down
[ world ] minus affection [ never ] loveless life be enough

Lost in re:birth... alone...
Where in eternity did all love overflow...?
Lost in re:birth... alone...
Please give me love to be born again this time...
Lost in re:birth....

all for my dears...

from "ache"

tsuki no kioku -fallen-

I embrace my ambitious dream the whole time while sleeping cautiously...
...awaken to somebody's words, in fate's mischief

Don't stop me. Because it goes to be drowned...
Jesus, please forgive me for the sins... -that I'll commit-

playing my instrument, I call out to you like the dark sky that is everywhere
entwined fingers play around the melody that has been torn to pieces melted while it wavered again

"tell me words of depravity, deep into my body"

Don't stop me. Because it goes to drowned...
Jesus, please forgive me for the sins

ephemeral withering thoughts having your eyes opened thus, what kind of dreams do you dream?
being violated by the spiral only the lie that clings to you still fills you up

though plugged up by loneliness I steal out, until I become free again
wherever I am, I pursue that wish drowning even if it doesn't come true, I still search

"tell me words of depravity, to... you all......."

yami ni furu kiseki

D'espairs Ray - yami ni furu kiseki

In the rather wondrous lonely sky my thoughts that will never die are floating
The cold winds bring(1) the season, my frozen white sigh heralded winter

My voice is in the letter written to you
It wafts down under you along with the white snow...

My heartless words torture you well I suppose until even now it pains you
And in the interior of the pain, the fact was that you continued to conceal a face unknown to me, didn't you?

Without feeling your pain
I was making you suffer alone in the darkness

With you, whom I met in the pure white winter I want it so that the two of us can share the pain
Always, by your side unchangeable, though the seasons cycle again...

In the dreary room I fear that I will lose you as you sink into the void
So that you won't disappear like this
I bounded your limbs, body, neck, and fingertips with red thread
Over and over, again and again, until your movements die off

I feel your existence until it hurts
Your smile that seemed broken was what I noticed first
Our fingertips touched they shiver as if they were freezing

You, looking like you would disappear in the pure white snow; show me the weakness you carry with you
Don't cry, for you are no longer alone let us watch the dream together...
Let us go to meet the waiting sorrowful, white, first blizzard of the season
If this earth should fall to a desolate end let us clasp our hands and walk, the two of us...

ori no naka de miru yume

ah, the moonlight cures my cold naked flesh
the darkness blooms profusely, the wind dies off...

in the black frightening secluded chamber, the pale wavering moonlight only shines on the darkness
I sigh deeply and gloomily; if I gaze at the moon that floats on the darkness, it is splattered only with deep crimson

shallow sleep still and the rest of the dream, that I dreamt at the very end, is...

hesitating, unable to escape the trembling lamenting night; it's swallowing me up
oblivion? a "fire of hope"? my wishes are afloat, wandering at the limits of these rusted dreams

the frozen-over darkness inquires I've a feeling it's become my last dream... the past repeats...
fearing and drowning in the nightmares I have, I am tied to the depths of this bottomless despair

ah, the days are heaped upon each other, like the waters of the "River of Forgetfulness"(1)
deep sleep again and the rest of the dream, that I dreamt at the very beginning, is...

the countless fires that dance in the sky only sadly show me my fate, from which I cannot be rescued
I desire intensely to live... I entrust my feelings to this song
ah, a voice that has no voice echoes along with the winds of this gloomy cage...

ah, deep sleep, my dream is on the way...

quarter void

Everything is but mundane ideals and hopes
I already lose sight; of myself, of oneself, of someone

I prefer the pain from the wound that I gouged out personally, it's the only tightrope
The reticent red liquid won't give away anything wake up to realize... I.D. of myself

The faint broken nightmare of the wings of my lost ego
I'm like the mannequin with the seeds of control buried within

My unrest simplifies, as it sinks throbbing into the red wound in my pulsating vein
Before my prey does, I pierce the nail in to wake up to realize... I.D. of myself

Dead to the utmost, my heart is gone under a sky that embraces but ash
All the voices I lost sight of are innumerable

The light won't bathe the jeers that the darkness spat out
Like ants that form lines, I can only merely abide by the rules

My unrest simplifies, as it sinks throbbing into the red wound in my pulsating vein
Before my prey does, I pierce the nail in to wake up to realize... I.D. of myself

If I forgot that my wings were connected to this body
then I can't get anywhere to that place of refuge
Even if these feet for example, that collapse into despair, are covered in darkness
that inextinguishable light still exists in these arms

The lengths of time are tied together, at the ends of which my epilogue awaits
Burned out to the last... the end is voices fallen into desolation, but...

Dead to the utmost, my heart is gone under a sky that embraces but ash
I now release the myself that I had lost
hardship over... this voice is...
I go towards the other side that I still cannot see...

Tainted World

controlling everything, the ridiculing hypocrites
brandish their drowning lust

feigning tears of deception, their sins are piling up
"Is not it a mistake?"

everyone devoted to greed, blood dirtied, that's destiny... are you hunting for this world?

living without cease, stealing even hope away
the reality(1) of a blindfold deceives

beautiful things are not needed, even compassion is only the voice of appearances memory of irritation

lies...
break down, tie together, pile up, held overhead
right...
indecision made silent
"I change the world."

show how everything can now be changed by light, hoist into the sky the tomorrow in which I trust
a vortex of guiding thorns, impregnable, I'm sure that the answers are spread out in that place

"without seeing into the midst of the briers, I grabbed as much of the truth there in my hand"

even though it's a mere hope, it should have changed the truth, carved into the world and this blood

lies...
grasp on, break down, don't care, sink in
right...
delusion made silent
"I save you now."

the curtain lifted now on a new world, leaving behind all indecision
wings spread under my hand, cross the wall, I'm sure the answers will echo there

The times is over now...
I draw a new scene...

Infection

My soul is frozen and it's tied...
My ears find no voice of you...
My legs torn in sadness...
I'm standing in the darkness... I can never go on...

rain in the way... the light is far away...

How many times did I shout your name in the storm?
My voice's drying out...
I live because of you, so I believe...
"close your eyes"
Therefore, this pain never heals...

My eyes flowing with sorrow has twisted my world...
Everlasting memories have lost its taste
and became my enemy and hate.

rain in the way... the light is far away...

How many times did I shout your name in the storm?
My voice's drying out...
I live because of you, so I believe...
"close your eyes"
I know... I can never reach for you...
I live because of you, so I believe...
"close your eyes"
I don't regret dying for you...

Marry of the blood

I am beautiful creature
The moonlight shines on my graceful silhouette
My senses and my pleasures stain my blood and these bloody eyes
[un]beautiful creature
My trickling emotions overflow... be almost drowned
As I'm all corrupted, I desire your chaste blood

This immortality brings about only loneliness
And while I'm battered with suffering, I suppose I continue existing

Neo rebirth... I impatiently wait for the time of our reunion
This time government... I search for the blood of my beloved one

[un]beautiful creature
"The dance of the supreme heart with the heart"
The thick blood contaminates the blood, a captivating baptism

I conceal in the darkness my pulsating aroused shadow
Incontinent in my sexual passion, my instincts beg you

Neo rebirth... My poison fang into my most beloved you
This time government... You're my fellow traveler to that forbidden territory

Neo rebirth... My poison fang into my reunited you
This time government... drown in the unknown and the pleasures
Brand new gate... Give you Valentine's name and Queen...
Bloodymarry done... in this instant I toast this affair...

Grudge

wriggling on the bottom as if burning, black blood prettily flows down a sword(1)
before my resentment... splits with a rip, until I've plundered everything
I hate you...

Break Down... I'll deny your existence...
Wake up... my bursting blood...
I throw you down and down to the depth
Until I die or you die... or until this world ends.
in a distorted voice I say to you... "and die, fucker die!!"

it aches out, I gouge out its tenacity like mud...
A dirty grudge... unfading, deepening...
until the nakedness of my malice, this blood, all dies away
I suffer... cause of you...

Break Down... I'll deny your existence...
Wake up... my bursting blood...
I throw you down and down to the depth
Until I die or you die... or until this world ends
you can cry and shout in the midst of terror... in a distorted voice I say to you...
"and die, fucker die!!"

x xxx xxx... xxxx xxx...
Breakdown... All of you... Breakdown... disgusted...
Breakdown... sensation... Breakdown... The whole world!!...

Break Down... I'll deny your existence...
Wake up... my bursting blood...
I throw you down and down to the depth...
Until I die or you die... or until this world ends
you can cry and shout in the midst of terror... in a distorted voice I say to you...
"and die, fucker die!!"

Hai to ame

birds that have lost all their colour dance in the obsolete rubble and grey sky
like when one remembers vertigo, the dazzling light that has disappeared drove everything mad...

you, whose voice has dried up, wander begging... with eyes that seem to be breaking along with your slender arms
held down with force, robbed even of your wishes hands, held up in the sky, touched the vast land fleetingly...

the blooming flowers in the sky scatter towards the end of sorrow, as rains of compassion fell
now, a singing voice echoes from you who are inaudible... an unreachable wish...

the lust of endless humanity eats away deeply at the sun... this world is now...

helpless, I stood stock still thus... who should I tell about this pain?
I was crying out from my heart... bound by darkness in the midst of my faint memories... only a smiling you is left

the flowers dancing in the wind forever colour you... your radiance now lights up
at the end of this road... if there's a tiny hope, let us continue to sing...

reaching... sacrifices pile up under these hands, as the grief of tears now heap up under a greedless sky

In Vain

love and hate myself. There're perfect senses
love and hate myself. An overflowing avarice

Although it is not perfect... I smile, all dried up
I envy your perfection... Just let me be... no dirty tricks

xxxx xxx... xxx xxx...
Nobody can fill my ego.
Nobody can violate me.
Nobody can do my style.
Therefore... I say...

in numbness...
scattering the rose seeds the pleasure of an ego that rises to the moon
hey, in your cradle rocking a pretty prostitute

love and hate myself. There're anger senses
love and hate myself. An overflowing idea

Although it is not perfect... I smile, all dried up
I envy your honesty. Don't look at my face

Nobody can fill my ego.
Nobody can violate me.
Nobody can do my style.
Therefore... so...

night...
you and I melt together a deed of perfection that glides over the moon
hey, in the cradle of your mouth soaked my only prostitute

I will dominate your fucker ass with sex.
Sex might be the only thing that
I can dominate with.
what the fuck, fuck it, just fuck 'em all !!
just don't fuck with me. mother fuckers die1

in numbness...
scattering the rose seeds the pleasure of an ego that rises to the moon
hey, in your cradle rocking a pretty prostitute

night...
Foreteller of the moon, lead me by your guidance.
if not sleep in silence.

Dears

Another side of the GAME... playing in the current until I lose my way
Another side of the FACE... crying in the depth of my illusions

alone...

refusing to shut it all up, for now I'm certain my fire-filled eyes are opening...

the darkness is torn apart and you become wind can you hear it? the voice of time soars past us
while lost, I still ceaselessly pierce through the closed off "key" opens a gap to far reaches

only despair floats in the sky, where even creation covers its eyes without having seen the light...

in darkness...

though insecurity stands in my way, my means of running away disappears...

to the ideal of a faraway other side that I can see, with a speed wishing to see the polished you
even if tomorrow will be a cold world, I go to brandish here that "something" which I can't lose...

when my eyes are obstructed, this place will be dyed in darkness
as time flows on, I lose sight of myself
why did you kill my freedom?
come now, I would have gone anywhere...
so, there are no answers for me...

now... the darkness is torn apart and you become wind can you hear it? the voice of time soars past us
while lost, I still ceaselessly pierce through the closed off "key" opens to truth...

flowing like the wind
only the miracle you traced out is
released... beyond the "road"
Look for it...

fuyuushita risou

I can't erase... that's why I... floating away...
Just thinking of the scene makes me sick...
eat away... decay... before it's your Falldown...

The incomplete moon and almost-dead sun are quite like a mirage
Shattered reason engulfs you sweetly embraced by the voices that have fallen into ruin
"do I dream...?" rose up from you to the sky
The loosened fallen ideal and rusted reality
pass each other by with a faded fragrance

Even you were consumed by the lost, grieving darkness
Like the swaying moon by the clouds

It's tears of blood begin to seep... worry... your hurt... many promise broken
It's tears of blood begin to seep... dirty... suffer... before it's your Falldown...

hating... falling... I am withstanding now...

Just thinking of the scene makes me sick... liar... betray... keep from falling...
Just thinking of the scene makes me sick... eat away... decay... before it's your Falldown...

The desire that was coiled around you seems like it will be torn asunder, I can't describe it but by despair...
There surely must be deceptionless thoughts in these hands... if they left me, I cannot search for them...
Even in the encroaching violations, my wishes will not become extinct...
believe me... stay with me... hug Falldown...

I go away from the sun... I'm falling... dirty... worry... How deep I descend?
screaming... be tired... so long... with darkness so long... I lose light...

Squall

transient as the seasons change, the flowers scatter
my memories, washed over by the lukewarm rain, were touched

if I close my eyes, you are laughing; my heart is so filled that my feelings overflowed

"goodbye..." the rains beat down on me until I am erased
you gave peace to my endless sorrow

I'm drowning in this gloom that cannot be concealed
my sighs are deep; I was thrust down into the darkness

ceaseless rain... it's futile; alone I tread forth, hand in hand with strength

painfully my trembling thoughts search you out
I won't forget a second time; a gentle voice scorches strongly

shining drops fall along the abelias(1), wavering gently
softly the light heals even the great thirsting earth
mingled into the rain, my feelings dissolved until they too flow...

goodbye... in the map of the future, you are not there
though I go on I don't forget; the miracle of a reunion with you...

reflecting my unravelling thoughts, the sky cried...

forbear...
I wanted to be together with you forever...

abel and cain

everyone's a clone... accept the brand of disgrace
the stake of possibility was struck in Fall into the depth...

from the beginning, we were real failures
wanting to see how we could distort even creation Reverse to the world

embracing to our bosom only bottomless lust
expelled onto the earth by even God!! Fucker right now...

"Burn away!"
Valiant... rebel Cain Resistance fucker!! "Don't be afraid!!"
Valiant... the bells of revolution wings of lucidity
Valiant... blasphemous Cain Resistance fucker!! "Don't be afraid!!"
Valiant... paradise seen in the eyes of oblivion...
the white wings that swooped down onto the earth have been trampled on and dirtied

there's "drag"(1) from melting into the sky and flying
there's glory the invalid's carnival Reverse to the world

sucking Abel's blood, the weight of wings grow heavier
wickedness sewed on so it's as if I can't fly Follow me...

"Burn away!"
Valiant... rebel Cain Resistance fucker!! "Don't be afraid!!"
Valiant... the bells of revolution wings of lucidity
Valiant... blasphemous Cain Resistance fucker!! "Don't be afraid!!"
Valiant... paradise seen in the eyes of oblivion...
the white wings that swooped down onto the earth have been trampled on and dirtied
in a place light cannot reach... worship the wounds, the door for accomplices... go ahead...

"Burn away!"
Valiant... rebel Cain Resistance fucker!! "Don't be afraid!!"
Valiant... the bells of revolution wings of lucidity
Valiant... blasphemous Cain Resistance fucker!! "Don't be afraid!!"
Valiant... on black wings until it ceases in death

Born

why... Life... the unpleasant voice and desire are also connected to the restricting disability
why... Die... if those sensations that are swallowed up by darkness are abandoned, it's satisfying

The meaninglessness of living, and that forgotten day of disgrace
I want to erase them all... along with weakness... "resound"

I want to broke mind... I was born again. A sacrifice that fell to festering
I let it all out... it all over again...
welcome to... nothing to worry about...

why... Life... I bite at my deteriorating lips, the irritation splits the skin
why... Die... no way to stop the throbbing pulsations, oozing loathsome feelings

Without having stepped into the deep purgatory, my shoulders are shaking
The ennui of living is pronouncedly coloured "resound"

I want to broke mind... I was born again. Weakness turned to ash
I let it all out... it all over again...
welcome to... nothing to worry about...
I want to broke mind... You are born again. Voices loudly resound
All you have to do it just follow me
welcome to... nothing to worry about...

"There's no meaning of living and such" so you hum somewhere you still search, you've been captured...
Impossible to shoot light into the closed abyss You are another gazing at die...

I want to broke mind... I was born again. I am afraid of nothing
I let it all out... it all over again...
welcome to... nothing to worry about...
I want to broke mind... You are born again. My love overflowing to you
All you have to do it just follow me
Last words for you... worry same the scars...

Forbidden

Days, All pain
where are you buried? crossing over the threshold
still I continue on without fear...God's lost son

Days, All pain
beg for peace... in a deadened place
I can't return again

the alternative to overflowing pain: devote yourself
I skillfully lead, I inform you
Follow to the DeathGod

Give me your suffering and sorrow voice
All this bitching, and bemoaning(1)
shall this emptiness be erased?
Give me your hatred and essence
All this bitching, and bemoaning
"ah... rusting, melting downward"

Days, All pain
even though you hold it in, it won't make you happy
but if you were to be satisfied...

the alternative to the swallowing darkness: devote yourself...
voices spattered with red and black mix together
Follow to the DeathGod

Give me your suffering and sorrow voice
All this bitching, and bemoaning
shall sorrow be ordered out of sight?
Give me your hatred and essence
All this bitching, and bemoaning
"come now, it's the end, destroy everything"

na... na na na... na na... axxx xx lixe an dexxh

Give me your suffering and sorrow voice
All this bitching and bemoaning
shall this emptiness be erased?
Give me your hatred and essence
All this bitching, and bemoaning
"ah... rusting... it's ending"

supposing that the world ends tomorrow
today,
I sow the seeds of the apple
for my priority is Adam...

DESERT

I was alone... I can't get to the sky...
Alone for all time! I can't get to the sky...

thirst and ruin fell; a handful of wishes
everything was abducted by the rain of the conquering sands
Alone for all time! I can't get to the sky...
grow worse
Alone for all time! with scars...

I beg water for my thirst; there's a struggle for the earth
it was warped lust that buries the split-open wound
Alone for all time! I can't get to the sky...
grow worse
Alone for all time! with scars...

flying off from the desert; illusions, grief change to wings
tell me that the collapsing sky branches out to be endless
brilliant and white, even though it burns out
the vain world...

besides... somebody is falling, waver, wavering
desire... alone, it's as if I am drowning deeply in the sky...

flying off from the desert; illusions, grief change to wings
tell me that the collapsing sky branches out to be endless
even if it does end, let's spread to display our wings

Screen

nobody is here; no discord in melody...
my heart is plugged up; no more pain left to feel...

it's too cruel, nobody can be healed
my eyes are covered up even in light

crumbling away in my arms; it's heartless... that I can't see the red burning sun

my lament ends; no tears for me to cry...
the darkness shines on me; no more hope left to live...

I was sleepless, a buzzing pierces me
a nightmare of endless ringing; everything is turning into darkness

the moon's embracing shine runs out; these eyes... don't even reflect the stardust of the night sky
as though these thoughts that have no destination are disappearing completely; since I'm alone, I tell you...

sleep... a dream with no awakening
once more, I started to forget the sky...
shallow... howling... haze...

my wished prayer rises higher to heaven; now I want to believe... the voice at the tip of the darkness
therefore, I live on... embracing my wound... though the light withers, I want to walk towards your shout
until the time that was given to us, life's flame, fades

[The world in a cage]

"are you free...?"
"I'm certain that I'm not free"

"in a small screen reflected in the depths of this eye, I see only myself..."

"I am in a bright warm place"
"I am not sure if I notice or not that the place I am in is a world inside a cage"

"I am in a dark cold place"
"I am not sure that I'm in that place of my own free will"

"I am still a pupa, still without wings"

"I admire you all, with your soaring figures"

"I am still a pupa, still without wings"

"I admire you all, with your wings stolen from you"

"I cannot become the ideal you wish for"
"because of that, I'm here"

"I cannot become the ideal I wish for"
"because of that, the same things keep repeating to me"

"in a small screen reflected in the depths of this eye, I see only myself..."

"are you free...?"
"I might be free"