Suicide Note

Today in school, we were taught about Martin Luther King, Jr.
The teacher who doesn't know anything, "You can't discriminate against anyone."
Senseless violence, every day it escalates
Teacher, don't give us too many ideas with too much information, please

"Those of you who think we don't need this guy around, try to stop this finger!"
In this whole world, is there nowhere I can be?

My feeble voice that doesn't reach anything, someone listen just a little
No matter how I scream, just staring at me like you don't care in the deafening silence
Since it's okay for me not to understand what everyone always talks about, let me listen
Shady dealings? Illness? Obesity? It eats away at me, gradually my voice died

Everyone laughed at me, trying to explain myself in front of the girl I like
If you walk into the classroom, someone's adorned a desk with a flower

Piercing my arm with broken glass, I tried to make sure
My blood is the same color after all? Stop leaving me out, then

An unbearably horrible torture chamber? Where is this place? I don't know
No matter how I call for help, I'm drowned out by everyone's voices ignoring me
Being hurt is the worst but since I can do bad things too, I'll join someone's circle
Domination? Servitude? Harmlessness? How stupid. Is everyone else bad? Or is it me?

My feeble voice that doesn't reach anything, someone listen just a little
No matter how I scream, just staring at me like you don't care in the deafening silence
Since it's okay for me not to understand what everyone always talks about, let me listen
Vulgarity? Suicide? I won't do it! If you want to change without grief, break out of your shell!