Closer to Ideal

[myself under control] a sigh that I vomited out and a "goodbye"
my senses are dulled on this hot night

Wake up
nothing but worthless stuff, overflowing, plugging up my eyes
[I'd sell my soul]
my soul bears a wound that bursts into flames
[heart like a hole]
I don't have that which I've lost
for its ephemeral, scattered sake, I carve deeply

for whose sake have all you innocents plugged up your beautiful hearts now?
I don't know

Wake up
[scene] until just one lone hand wants to tell
[I'd sell my soul]
my soul bears a wound that trembles
[heart like a hole]
there's nothing to fear
until my senses are lost, guide me, deeply

even if I gaze at that sky, I can't see... I've forgotten that brilliance
the moon sleeps and now, I wake up so that...

I gouge at the shadow from a blue fire of depravity, tracing a delusion's world
a twisted world unfolds, alone I swallow its sorrow

[I'd sell my soul]
to everything ephemeral and scattered
[heart like a hole]
now, it doesn't end here
this sleepless night advances
to a brilliant place
I embrace a glass dream to my breast, until it breaks...